qistinasaim's.

Sunday, July 12 @ 22:21

im hereeeeee nowwwww.
{click hereeeee mofos}

thankyou whocares-watdeythink,you've been an awesome friend.

@ 01:04

all i wanna do is to laugh till tears come rolling down my cheeks and my stomach hurts so bad,i'll pass out.

P/S:I MISSSSSS MY EXCOS A WHOLE LOTTTTTT. :(

seeee lah.

make me so attached with you people that i'll start missing you guys after only a month of not meeting up.

haiyaaaaaaaah.

watch Sunshine Cleaning with me anyone?

Tuesday, July 7 @ 21:04

it's so hard trying to push yourself to do better,to do well.
i am studying like mad,trying to do better,trying to pass.
and i dont think i can take the disappointment if i fail this.

right now,i crave for an A.
i crave for praises for my hardwork and success in my studies.
i cant even remember when was the last time i was actually proud of myself for doing well.

what happened God?
sigh.

Sunday, July 5 @ 21:25

to be honest,i'm kinda looking forward to tomorrow's paper.
insane i know.
im only 3/4 done in memorising.
but its a good start dont you think so?
BEAAAAAAMS. :D

@ 02:20

ive been studying.
and if all this hardwork still doesnt pay off,then i shall really proclaim myself stupid.

im pissed because ive not watched transformers and people just cant stop ranting about how great/cool/bestest movie it is.

hai teck,helfi,dika,malek,aisyah and phyu made me a very happy girl at work just now.
lovehuglovehuglove cathay people,muaaaaaahhhhhh! :D

later will be a mugging day for Pharmaco.
i'm gonna lick my notes with love till i get everything right and into my brain.
i shall go get everything ready for mugging day later.
coffee,panadols,biscuits,paddlepops,notes,pens,highlighters and most important of all,the brilliant brain.
for now,sleeeeeeeep qistina.

i cant wait for next friday!
hohoho. :D

Wednesday, July 1 @ 18:25

things to do:REMINDERS FOR YOURS TRULY

1.cut my fringe,i want my bangs back.
2.do my ezlink card.(i put it on hold for 2mths already,i deserve a tight slap on the face)
3.buy that top and dress before i run out of money.
4.pay phone bills dammit.
5.go to school tomorrow and do some serious studying during the daytime.
6.start on marketing.
7.start on your reports,you lazybummmmm.
8.catch transformers ASAP,its a mussssstttt,even if it kills you nurqistinasaim.
9.cleaaaan your oh-so-organised wardrobe before the mother snaps.
10.stop procrastinating,forgod'ssake!

Tuesday, June 30 @ 23:25

on this day, you read something that moved you and made you realise there were no more fears to fear. no tears to cry. no head to hang in shame. that every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that. that everyone and everything lives on inside you. that that doesn’t make any of it any less real.

that soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than cold ones.

that being alone means you’re free. that old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. that the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them. that everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. that every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.

that you control that completely.

that the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. that you laugh more than you cry. that crying is good for you. that the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.

that your friends are reflections of the best parts of you. that you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. that dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.

that the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. that no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them. that what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such. that the difference between a job and art is passion. that neither defines who you are. that talking to strangers is how you make friends.

that bad days end but a smile can go around the world. that life contradicts itself, constantly. that’s why it’s worth living.

that the difference between pain and love is time. that love is only as real as you want it to be. that if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around. that the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. that nothing matters up until this point. that what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. forever. that rain is beautiful.

and so are you.
i wrote this for you

i read this somewhere and somehow it made me smile and all warm inside.

@ 18:14

i dont do this often.
but im still upset bout Michael Jackson's death.
despite the many speculations about him,despite the rumours,despite the plastic surgeries,we cant deny the fact that that guy is brilliant in his work.
the media was so caught up in pinpointing his every flaw that they made us forget how talented he is.
i grew up listening to songs by Jackson 5 and Michael Jackson since the mother's a fan of him.
and i loveeeee it.
i remember how i teared the first time i heard the song 'I'll be there'.
dont ask me whyyyyyy.
but that's how influential he was dont you think so?

so can the media stop talking bout him in a bad way already?
he's dead,for god's sake.

@ 00:44

i want to spend a day,sitting down at an ice parlour/cafe,just hanging out with my bestest group of people,take a million photos,laugh about everything and nothing,enjoy the moment and the company.
can you give me that sooooooon,God?

i miss having someone msging me at weird timings,waking me up either in the middle of the night or early in the morning,urging me to watch cool videos on youtubes.
i miss having someone to debate with about everything and anything.
ohhh maaaan.

:(

Monday, June 29 @ 17:13

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year’s course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word ‘happy’ would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness."
-Carl Jung

is it wrong wanting to be alone?
i didnt know i was so used to being alone,not being involved in a relationship until recently.
suddenly the words 'love' and 'like' become a burden to me.
suddenly i realised that im no more in touch with my inner feelings.
suddenly im asking myself alot of questions about my thoughts and feelings.
no,its not about the past relationship,khai's not the reason why im scared to fall in love again.
im just not interested.
to all this things related to love and relationship.
yes,ive grown numb and all cold.

or maybe,just maybe,ive not found the one who is able to break this wall that ive built around me.
yes,i have that wall around me.
i built it myself.
and im not willing to break this wall just for anybody that comes along saying he likes me.

it took me a looooong time to get back on my feet.
it took me a looooong time to be all happy and merry again.
and im not willing to forsake this for something im not even sure will give me more happiness than hurt.
i know,you wont know if you dont try.
but right now,im not willing to give it a try.
life's sooo gooood now,i dont want to wreck it.

people have been telling me that its not good being alone for so long.
but hey,im enjoying life now and i am happy.
sure i have my bad days when all i wanna do is run up to a person,sobbing and getting that comforting hug,being told that everything's gonna be alright and stuff like that.
but ya know,ive been comforting myself all this while with help from friends and it's been good.
im still breathing and pretty much sane.

i know i know,there were some posts in my blog when it seemed like i was in deperate need to have someone in life.
but really,those were during my depressing days when everything didnt seem to go my way and stuff like that.
what,dont tell me you dont have those days?

things might change in the future.
my perception towards love and relationship will probably change in the near future.
i might fall in love with a person and if i happen to be lucky,he'll love me back.
i will probably get married in the end despite telling everyone that i dont want to get married.
but that depends on fate dont you think so?
so we'll see what God has in store for me.

but right now,it's not important to me.
it's not a necessity.
im like what.....19?
really young still.
there's still a loooooong way to go and i'll be meeting another thousand of guys in the future.
so we'll see,we'll see.

moving on.
3 modules down,3 more to go!
1 week,1 week!
focus qisssssssssss,fo-cusssssssssss!

Friday, June 26 @ 12:10

how now brown cow.
i dont know what im feeling.
and it's really frustrating.